2010 in a Nutshell

Well, it has been so long since i have posted on here! A lot has changed in my life over this past year and a half. The most obvious that everyone knows it I made my way home back to Bakersfield from NJ, thank goodness! I did not like that place at all! So my Mom came and picked me up and we packed up and left! On the way home I did pick up the most amazing adorable dog you have ever seen! My little Honey.... she was a Yorkie poodle with all the love in the world to give! She was everything to me. But the sad news is I had her in my life for a little over a year. Unfortunately she is gone and her spirit lives with me everyday. She held me together for this last 8 months of crazy life I have been going through. Since I have been home I have worked for RJ's as a server and then i got the chance to work for Coach as a seasonal manager last year. I was so excited to work there! This had been my dream for so long to be in a boutique. I loved it! Well the season ended and I thought I was still serving for me but God was on my side and a position opened up in the store for a Co manager position and I interviewed and got the permanent full time job!!! I was so stoked you don't even know! So i am currently still here at Coach and loving my job everyday!

A bit of craziness Michael and I are no longer together as of April 2010. This was really hard in the beginning. I spent the last almost 4 years planning my entire life with him, and it was ripped away. But in these last few months I have discovered myself more that I ever thought that I would. Of course I was hurt and confused and depressed and on and on..... But then it all hit me one day that the person I thought he was really wasn't him all along. So many things I discovered and just thought to myself that love really is blind. I invested so much into this relationship that I forgot to think about all those things that were really important to me. I was in love with the fact that he was planning our future in his mind and on paper but he could never seem to make if official. I have learned so much out of this in all a positive way that it has molded me into an even better friend and future girl friend for someone someday. I do wish him the best and happiness. The best thing that came out of this relationship for me was I have made some of the most amazing friendships through him that I would have never known. Jenny has been more than a friend to me, she has become a sister. Her kids are so dear to my heart and her husband James has even been a great friend and listener even though he's best friends with Michael. Heather and I have been friends the whole time Michael and I were together and we have just grown into her being one of my best friends. I came out of this with new friends who have been there for me like no other. I thank them both for that because I know it had to be hard being friends with both of us in a time like that. I love you guys like sisters! All of my other Friends.... you all know who you are! were my towers of strength also. I could have not gotten through this if it wasn't for all your support and love! I knew that I had a good friends but you all have some much love to give and I will always give the same support you have given me. Liza and Stewie have been so awesome with me, i love my hetero sexual life partner, my Fusband and my Fids! I don't think I would be complete with out you all! Brooke, John, Kristal... we love wine:30! you all listened even when I was just repeating my self over and over. But you all made me stronger and were awesome to just be there for me. My Shanda Jean..... it was God putting us together through this hard time to be here and support one another, love you girl! And the rest of you have been so amazing with all your love and support.

In the midst of all this and feeling like my life has been flipped, launched and tossed all over. I lost my Honey and even my dog sister. We had to put her down 2 days after Honey died because she attacked our other dog. It was so hard but it was the right thing to do. I have felt like when is this year going to be over! But my life has changed so much that I feel right now that I am the happiest I have been in a REALLY long time. I have had a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, I no longer feel stressed out everyday about my relationship. I have been focusing on me and doing what I want. So since April i have lost over 30lbs and feeling great. I recently became a Feagan( a fake vegan as Glitter and I like to say). usually 6 days a week I eat strict vegan only, non dairy, no meat or any by product of any living animal of being. I know I sound crazy but I love the way I feel and look. It is extremely hard especially when you are a huge steak lover!!! But it gives me something to focus on and keeps me going! My friends and family all think I'm crazy but they really help and support me in this and that's what has made this so much easier to do. Believe me I REALLY miss CHEESE!!!!!

So now I am just being free and loving life. In these past few months I have really got into mountain biking with Shanda and her family. I love it! I honestly helps me clear my mind every time I go. Plus its such a great workout. So after Christmas I plan on buying a new bike for me! I feel so determined lately to do stuff I have never wanted to do. Like... run a marathon. I don't know why but I have this urge to do it! I just feel alive right now and I'm loving my life.

Over all things are really good, my family is doing really well. The kids are growing up so fast and Aunt Sparkle is so sad they are getting bigger! Christmas is coming and I'm looking forward to making new memories over this holiday season and taking 2011 head on! This is going to me MY year I can feel it! I love you all and I hope this fills you in!